Belated story, back on the amusement ride

Two thoughts in one here.

My "original" idea was to post yesterday as August 18th is an interesting date, in addition to being the little sister's birthday. Two years ago I thought I had "the" birthday gift for her as it was our very first ultrasound and maybe, if she swore to secrecy, I'd let her in on the "we're pregnant" news. At least that was my plan in the morning. We got sidetracked when we heard for the first "certain, medically verified" time the "T" word. (and thus I forgot all about little sister's birthday)

I tend to like to have things in order, much to a fault a perfectionist, you get the picture. If our plan was to have one kid, and then perhaps down the road add to that, well, karma is a force that rarely listens. Don't get me wrong: we love our girls. We should be grateful to have two healthy daughters. But to be honest, I did not handle hearing "twins" well that first day. The room went silent to the point that I think the nurses were really confused as to why this couple who had worked so hard for this were looking like they were in shock. I wasn't sure whether I was going to throw up, pass out, or what. Another couple had just found out they also were having twins and they were hugging and completely ecstatic. We sat at bread company afterwards pretty much thinking how are we going to manage twins? - the costs, both of us working, etc........ After going through the "trying to conceive" deal, now looking at a twin pregnancy and beyond, it felt like another climb to the top of a rollercoaster.

And that's my sadly put-toghter segue. Funny exactly two years after that, I'm feeling much the same. The girls are in their first week of "school." Not sure how they're handling it (seemingly not too badly) but I'm not doing that well. I liked the place and people before they started, but my typical worrying/negativity is winning the war. Running myself short and not sleeping aren't helping. Somehow there's stuff going on all the time - a twin sale, a couple volunteer events (don't ask me why without any free time I added those into the mix, a couple birthday parties - I swear I need a completely "free" weekend and so far it might be October by the time that rolls around. We're also waiting to sign on our re-financing so we can ditch our lemon of a newer Accord (Boo for Honda! I've loved my past Hondas but this one has us switching companies) So add in car shopping sometime soon too.


I told hubby I'll try (and fail) at letting the rest of the year be a trial period for a lot, so hoping I stay on the sane side of things until January and by then the school and budget should be in good, working order. We can hope. After tonight, I've learned that, if we do move as planned in a few years, we're going to probably need a lot bigger yard for the area than I thought.

If you got through all that, a small girls update:
So far at school, Audrey is the happy, easy to nap, social one and Allie is the opposite. As Audrey is very fussy with us, it's "amusing" they're pulling the switch for others. The other night they were both very happy to throw laundry into their hamper which included shoes amongst other things - baby steps, right? We did get the proofs from their last photo session but it's set-up on password, so let me know and I'll send the info.